Only two months ago, we lost our youngest child,and now we have lost another member of our family. Misty suddenly started having difficulty breathing, and sounded as if there was fluid in her lungs. I held her close to me all night, for fear she would pass while I slept. At the age of 15, she has lived a good live.
She was spoiled like the baby she was, and took a piece of my heart as she crossed over the rainbow bridge. Run free sweet girl, run free. Mommy misses you already!
I don’t even know where to begin… at the age of 29, on Monday, July 15, 2013, God has called our Christopher Ryan home. It is a parents worst nightmare to loose a child. A call you never want to receive! He passed quietly in his sleep, which is the only thing that gives me any peace right now. We just celebrated his 29th birthday on July 4th.
Topher found Chris when he went to try and wake him for his shift at work. Chris had a habit of sleeping through his alarm, so it wasn’t unusual to get the call to wake him up. A lot of unanswered questions right now… feeling incredibly saddened and my heart is hurting!
It is hard to reconcile this in my mind! I lived in the Black Forest until I was 17 years old. This was home for a great portion of my life, my son grew up here, how can it be burning like this. In all of my many years, I do not remember there ever being a fire there before. So many memories! Feeling very sad…
Just as I expected, the Phoenix Residency was fantastic but exhausting! It didn’t help that the temperatures were in the 100’s 🙂 I met some fantastic people and got a chance to meet up with some “old friends” from the Portland Residency.
I have to admit that I was a bit overwhelmed with the prospect of the dissertation process prior to attending this residency, but really feel like I got a lot out of the information provided, talking with faculty, other colleagues, and advisors. I am feeling like this is very do-able.
Maturity and depth of character
The dragonfly, in almost every part of the world symbolizes change and change in the perspective of self-realization; and the kind of change that has its source in mental and emotional maturity and the understanding of the deeper meaning of life.
The traditional association of Dragonflies with water also gives rise to this meaning to this amazing insect. The Dragonfly’s scurrying flight across water represents an act of going beyond what’s on the surface and looking into the deeper implications and aspects of life.
It seems so fitting for this new stage in my life… change, change, and more change. After two years and eight months, I have resigned from my job and am looking to begin new adventures. Yesterday was bitter-sweet; I have met so many wonderful people and learned so much from them. I will miss the daily interactions with people who have had a profound impact on my professional life, and those who have become my friends.
It is time to move on, focus on my studies, and look for a new path.
I plan to take some time and attend my next residency in Phoenix at the end of the month. I have registered for two classes next quarter, get my priorities in order, and move on!
Dragonfly Site. (n.d.). The meaning of a dragonfly: What does a dragonfly symbolize? . Retrieved from http://www.dragonfly-site.com/meaning-symbolize.html
It seems so hard to believe that I could be 50 years old, a quarter of a century (as Jim keeps reminding me). I have to admit that I have been struggling with it for the last month. I don’t know why, because I just don’t feel old. 50 is the new 40, right!?! Well, the day has come and gone and I survived.
I had a nice pre-birthday on Sunday going to the Zoo with Jim. We enjoyed seeing the animals and trying to avoid the dive-bombing geese! Yesterday, we had lunch with Chris and Topher, and then went to see the Croods in 3D. It was an entertaining movie.
Later, we played UNO… they show no mercy! I should have won!!! Finished the day with Hungarian Pork Chops and French Silk Pie 🙂 The only thing that would have made it better would be having all three boys home… missed you Jimmy.
Either he is a computer genius or he is upset that he isn’t the center of attention. My guess is the latter. Watching football tends to take priority for everyone.